Best Video Ever

I'm sure most of you have seen this video going around on social media, I did, and I had no idea what it was about but I kept seeing it shared, so figured it was good.  I ended up watching it yesterday and ended up in tears towards the end.  It is so spot on.  I recommend watching if you haven't already.  I watched this after my Husband I and I had a disagreement just hours earlier regarding me cooking dinner...which I am the only cook in the family, grocery shopper, dish washer, food prepared and meal planner.  Welp, this video is perfect.  I feel like I have given up so much of me the past several years - to play my role as a stay at home Mom - honestly I didn't feel it all until I became a FT stay at home Mom.  I love being a Mom to my girls - but I would say I have given up about 95% of me to do this JOB and do it decently - I wouldn't say well because I feel there is a lot I could do better.  I am anxious for the days I can shower again without having to do it while baby is napping - or finally just the past 2 weeks or so I can turn on YouTube kid videos for my girls and get them to sit in the bathroom while I get a shower.  That isn't to say that a toothbrush that was perfectly fine won't get tossed in the garbage while I am showering - a kid won't run out of the bathroom to go create a giant mess in their bedroom, etc. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HB3xM93rXbY

I am not trying to complain but rather just state reality.  I am anxious to get some of me back - hopefully soon - but I also know right now my girls need me and there is no one else who can play my part.  So for now, it is how it is.  Hard, exhausting, giving all of my attention and energy to everyone but me - Husband included. 

On a side note - My Sister did have her baby last week - I was there for the birth and did do birth photography for her and her Fiance.  I didn't watch as closely as I had when my first niece was born, but that was fine with me :)  I got the pictures I needed to get, minus any personal images being included.  The delivery was scary - my niece did not cry for 4 minutes after birth, she was just laying there still, not moving, they called NICU in and the nurses did do chest compressions for a bit.  Babies pulse dropped to 60 at one point, which is when they started the CPR, chest compressions and oxygen.  My Mom and my Sister's Fiance's Mom were both standing in the corner of the room I think not knowing what to do.  I just kinda took over trying to comfort my Sister and her Fiance both while they were sobbing - thinking their child wasn't going to make it.  It was pretty darn scary.....  those little babies can be so fragile.  She did stop breathing the following day and the only way my Sister and her Fiance knew was the baby's face turned blue - they ran and got a nurse who came in and flipped her over and smacked her on the back a few times until she took a breathe.  So scary.....

Anyhow, I've got to get back to my job and get my girls lunch made.  Take care all.

SPRING!

Spring is here, but the weather today is summer weather!  So glad for sunshine and time outside.  We have been adjusting to my hubby's new job - schedule as a family.  Trying to figure out when to start dinners, when to be quiet because of sleeping, etc. it's been fine though.  For Spring Break last week we met up with some friends and one of the Mom's just so happened to be one of my hubby's new co-worker's wife, so it was nice to meet her and get to talk for a little bit.  We went to a trampoline park place here in town - it was the girls' first time there and the photo below is Kyla (going down the orange slide) and Emma.  Emma got ran into a few times and so she spent most of the time on my lap - she is pretty attached still, which is fine with me.  She turns 2 in June.  My baby's growing up - it goes by so fast.  Which I like but I also don't like... 

I've been getting busier with my photography business.  I've had 2 shoots the past 2 weeks and have two more planned this month.  I have a large family next.  I will post some photos from the shoots I have taken.  Kyla and Emma are about to get a new baby cousin.  My Sister and her Fiance are expecting within the next few days.  I am excited.  I saw my first niece who is now 8 years old be born and it was amazing and freaky all at the same time.  Since I never got to have my baby's normal (c-section) I am totally excited to see this again, and I will be doing birth photography for her, so that makes me even more excited I think.  Such amazing moments. 

How the girl's wake up their Daddy in the mornings.

 Ky's new nose freckles.  I thought they were so cute, I told her to lay down and let me take a picture.  By the way, aren't her eyelashes amazing?  They are so thick long and BLACK.  She is a lucky girl!!

 Ky's new bike helmet (and her gummy smile) - she rides her bike way too fast now down our long driveway, so this was needed.  We have also been taking walks by the river - gotta get Mama's thighs back in shape :)  We plan to go for a hike up a mountain here as a family soon.  If all goes well I want to make this a weekly routine. 

My selfie :)  My Hubs and I have a joke about the "Selfie" Chainsmoker's song.... so this is my selfie for today.