This Week

Finally getting around to my weekly update.  Had a lot of stuff on my mind lately; early this week was pretty difficult.  I was snooping around on Facebook and found photos of my Niece that her Step-Mom had taken of her that were of my Niece made up to look like evil or satanic or something.  Very disturbing.  I have only ever seen one Exorcist movie because someone I was dating wanted to go see it, but I was not into it.  Anyway, imaging the little girl from the Exorcist movie....that is what my Niece looked like in these photos.  So disturbing that I was boiling mad but crying all at the same time.  I feel so badly for this little girl to the point where I decided that I don't care what my family thinks, I decided that I wanted to fight to get custody.  I had my Husband talk to some lawyers he knows and apparently nothing can be done unless the parents are like cracked out and neglecting her, which they aren't.....  there is some neglect, like she doesn't get regular showers at her Dads and doesn't get fed good, but other than that I don't have much to prove that they are all 3 unfit parents.  Very hard for me.  I'm not sure really what I can do.  I wish I could do more but I feel helpless.  Anyhow...  I'm also really excited because my future Sister-in-Law asked me to do some "engagement" photos for her and my Brother-in-Law.  I am excited to have my first set of "models" for photos.  My Husband isn't into the posed photos and my Daughter is always on the run and she won't pose for me for nothing, so I'm pretty excited to have some willing participants.  This couple has already had their engagement photos professionally done, but with professional you don't get the rights and without those prints are extremely expensive and you don't get much freedom either, like the ability to post on Facebook, do neats prints for wedding centerpieces, etc.  The photos I do for them will be posted in the local newspaper on their engagement announcement and she also wants to use some on the tables at the wedding reception.  I hope I can do good...but we will see.  (Kyla will also be one of the flower girls in their wedding, so that will be fun too!)  I've been scouting out neat places to do photos for them and studying my manual for my camera when I can.  It is so hard to find time to do this!!!  Holy cow.  When people used to tell me "get school done now, before you have kids" I always kind of laughed and knew it would be hard but I didn't quite get it until now.  LOL.  My child is into so many things she shouldn't be every two seconds.  I have no time to concentrate on studying anything.  BUT....I did learn how to lighten up photos that are for instance taken in the shade on my camera today which is really cool!  So with this, it doesn't matter if I need to take a photo that is in the shade or dim lighting, I can lighten up the settings on my camera and then take the photo and it won't look dark at all.  Neat, neat!  There is so much that my camera can do that I don't even know how to do yet, so it'll be good for me to learn more.  I wanna see if maybe I have any kind of talent at this photography stuff because just thinking about Kyla starting preschool and that kind of thing makes me nervous!  I don't have anybody to pick her up at 11:15 three days a week or whatever and take her to daycare while I am at work.  I just don't.... so I feel like I need to figure out something I can do now, rather than wait until I have to quit work or something because I have to figure out how to get my kid to school and back and don't have anybody who can do it.  Schools make it really difficult now-a-days to have two full-time working parents.  Even with me working 24 hrs/week, I work full days so wouldn't be able to pick her up at all 3 days out of the week, which won't work.  We'll figure this out and I know I shouldn't be worried about it now, but I definitely think some planning now will help out when the times comes for her to start school.

On a side note, Kyla has been so lovey lately, I LOVE it!  I call her my little monkey because she gives me these full body hugs and wraps her legs and arms around my body, then lays her head down on my shoulder and sometimes pats me on the back.  LOL.  I love the little hand pats, so cute!  That's about it.  Greg is working on getting the fence up a lot now and I can't wait.  I've been sun tanning a lot now that it's warm out and it's not fun to not have privacy, it will also be nice for Kyla to have a safe area to play where I don't have to watch every little thing she does all the time.  Anyway that's about it.  Everyone have a great night.